Colouring in special

I thought I would give you all a colouring in treat from the Obscure comic edition 1.

given my urges
investigating my own words
lost in thoughts
too evil to explain
open to attack
but never to reply
given my urges
experimenting with combination
a moving darkness
a reflection of my soul
disturbed
broken
given my urges
excuses of apathy and pain
heart of stone
cracked and broken
crumbling to dust
my thoughts in written word
given my urges
you cannot excuse compulsion
this is what I am
this is what I think
it cannot be fixed
given my urges
brings a tear to my eye
I’m to blame
given my urges
what would I be without my pain.

23/2/98

Disappointment crosses my mind
I should be sad, but I am not
stunned, caught from a blindspot.
an unbelievable finality.
someone I thought happy and together
how could it be like this.
the pain stops for one,
but increases for everyone else.
not an expected end.
no excuses
no going back
disappointment comes again
it messes with my mind
another friend gone away
another wreath to lay
disappointment in myself
disappointment with the dead
the final solution was his last performance
someone better than me, smarter than me
is now only just dead before me.
(no tears for the selfish)

13/11/97